If they really cared they would listen very closely.
If they actually heard then they would understand.
If they truly understood, the world would be a better place for it.
“With all lowliness and meekness, with long-suffering, forbearing one another in love”
“…add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love”
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails”
We should live in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; … and in sincere love
I wish I could just get my head clearer. It would make my life so much better. Then I wouldn’t be as irritable or as tired. I would be able to concentrate on my assignments instead of wandering away to something else, or waste time. I don’t know what my issue is. Dr says it’s ADD. I suspect I’m probably missing some major nutrients or something. If it’s green you probably shouldn’t eat it. Or at least I usually don’t. So……that is probably part of my problem. I have no doubt. How do you fix that, when you don’t like most vegetables? I wish I had an eraser to erase parts of my head that keep squirming. I don’t want them anymore. It would save my tons of torment.
“You say that love goes anywhere,
In your darkest times, it’s just enough to know it’s there”
Polaris - Jimmy Eat World
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If that were so then why are all of my dark times when everyone turns away? That’s when I become the problem not one wants around anymore.
If anyone really understood how I felt inside, they would know. I suppose that’s part of the problem then.
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I think I finally found a doctor who gets it. Most kids with ADD touch everything and are bouncing off the walls. But he said some of them internalize all of that energy. Which then becomes anxiety. If your someone like me who doesn’t sleep restfully also, he said one way to really wake up is get angry. A short fuse - I guess this too is quite common in ADD. Many people with ADD use excessive amount of either caffeine or nicotine, because they are stimulants. Stimulants are also meds used to treat ADD. Not the same ones, the caffeine and nicotine are to be avoided actually. I don’t smoke but can’t stay away from pop, and now coffee.
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I can’t explain being stuck inside any better than that. Why things get frozen in anxiety. Maybe it’s just me
They say you always hurt the ones you love the most…….. Even when you don’t mean to.
The ocean has immense depth, yet on the surface only glass reflecting the mood of the changing sky, stealing it’s blue and absorbing it’s cries. Beneath the surface calm lies things yet unknown to human eyes. Some of the most beautiful tropical ecosystems, thriving in loving seclusion. Other parts, devoid of light and home to only the strangest life forms, far beyond the reach of modern technology. Untouched or tainted, reacting only to the changes impacted by distant causes. Are theses impacts then as intended, or indeed inconsequential? The glass facade broken only by the upheaval of angry waves and the swirling discontent of the depths. Heaving, crashing and ultimately falling, only to return to it’s previous state of empty reflectance. It’s only friend the infinite sky and the fish that know.
Walls are to built to keep people out, or to keep things in. A newly constructed wall may seem to be just the addition you wanted. Given time all walls seem to crack and crumble, either from within or without. Some are constructed on unstable ground and need frequently amended. Some are built for all the wrong reasons and some for survival. Some walls are the only protection from invasion in the cold, dark, night. These walls are generally the toughest type made. Built to withstand the thrown stones and motor fire. Yet stand on in quiet servitude.
Some walls are as old as all of humanity. Erected to fight an ancient battle, that long since lost meaning or bearing. Yet the walls of their ancient fortresses remain. Standing still against the sun and storm alike. Holding firm despite their cracks. They stand against the rain and cold, as they have always done since time unknown.
Some walls are made a prison. To hold within that which is deemed unbearable. The pent up place where the unwanted are stuffed, til claustrophobia sets in. The walls of this dungeon are deep enough to stifle all the cries.
